Some ppl needs to chill

Generally, i am a happy person (think ive said that a couple of times on my blog). I have low degree of annoyance (which mean i don't get annoyed easily) but i have high degree of tolerance (which mean i have almost zero tolerance for shit).

Some ppl get all serabut and panic and all when they are under preasure or over sensitive over something. Seriously I can't stand these type of ppl.

What the hell? You ppl need to chill and relax!

Some ppl have bigger and more serious problems than you are dealing with so stop acting like it's the end of the world and tarik muka seribu for the rest of of life.

Jangan jadi sad and pathetic.

Speechless

Okay, i guess now the news that i will be leaving is out in the open. Nevertheless, you still can't ask me anything about it. You can hear, you can comment but you can't ask. Not just yet.

Anyways, my office is organizing like a tea-party to celebrate me leaving. My office is organizing a high-tea in conjunction with me leaving. There will be a gathering of people, im sure all are in a happy mode like we're going to a party of something. Maybe there will be presents and cards. Speech. All eyes on me. Not to mention suddently everyone wants to take pictures with me.

Do you people know me? Im like Christina Yang in Grey's Anatomy. I don't like to feel "loved". Well, at least i don't like to show it. I don't like lovely dovy and touchy moments except with my boyfriend. My family don't have parties on birthdays. We don't do surprises. We have family dinner on birthdays where people all sit together in a table to say our prayer and a pep talk on how growing up should be by dad. Yeah. We are cold people.

Anyways again, I actually think they are organizing this too soon. I mean i have like another 2 weeks to go.

Should i start preparing a speech now? What am i suppose to say?

Urgh, this just isn't me.

I need consult!

At Point Blank

There has got to be a point where certain remarks just isn't that funny anymore.

For a fact, i hate name tag. I seldom wear them. But for change, i am wearing them now because i'm over these remarks ppl give me that they think i'm chinese and when i start telling them ny name and even spelling it for them, they are like "ha?. why so weird lah ur name. i thought you're chinese". So now that i have my name tag on, you know what i am, right? so don't give me that surprise look.

But today, this one particular Mr. Lawyer as soon as he saw me, i don't know why he has to shout and let the whole court knows. He's like "waaah. I thought chinese!". Excuse me Mr. Blind, but did you not see my name tag and jakun sangat ke tak pernah tgk Malay rupa mcm chinese, Malay rupa mcm Indian and whatsoever. Jeez!

p/s I am not that obvious so will you ppl just quit it!!

After Life.

When we were in school, we were pushed to be the top student so we could either get into the top classes or go to boarding school (because admit it, we live in a country where getting into a bording school are considered the elite, for bright students).

Then, when got passed that, we entered high school and we were pushed to score straight As so that we could be a doctor. no? okay, correction. We were pushed to score straight As so that we could get into University. And yes, at this point we thought to ourself that this is it, the kind of freedom that we have been dreaming of...the fun, bfs and gfs, friends, like those we seen on TV, 90210 or whatever. We want that.

Once we were in it, we realise that the chase is not over. We get sick of the whole when-will-study-be-over and we dream of the after life when we finally graduated and start earning money so we could shop all we want and buy unlimited stock of clothes, shoes and go for vacation. And we believe, that after we reached that phrase, everything will work out fine. We finally have a job. What more is there to ask for, right?

Well, at least thats how i see it or how i went through. Only to realise that, this is the hardest part. Why? because this is the part when you will want more (again, at least for me). Why? because before it was only about getting a job that pays, you think that is what you need-just the job that pays you enough. But no! Once you get here, it will never be enough. Not just the money, but the part where hopes and dreams comes tag along. You have a job but it won't get you to your dreams. So you search and you're torn between having just a job or having the dream job.

Like i have said before, i wish i was born simple. I'm sorry, but i am greedy and i will always want more. Having just a job for me right now is not good enough for me. I want a job that'll take me places.

I admit, letting go of my job right now is the most risky thing i have done. But it would also be the bravest move i have ever made. It is not going to be easy. But i guess i don't want easy. I will deal with it. I'll cross the bidge when i get there.

Quoting from Grey's Anatomy Season 7 from Yang.

"You are either born simple or me"

Which one are you?

p/s there is nothing wrong with wanting the simplist thing in life. i admire those who does.

Korea, I miss You

I was reading through a few blogs and quite a few are counting their days to Seoul Korea. It hit me that it's been a year now when i visited Korea. Oh god, I miss that country.

It has also been a year since my last vacation and Damn it! I need one right now!