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I am doubtful that i will get a bonus this year. 

And my fear of that when it actually happen is my loyalty to the place changes. 

I know myself too well that i know it will upset me.

Never that girl

I was never that girl...


1. Who dreams of the fairy tail ending i.e find their prince charming. get married. learn to cook every dishes there is. have kids. retired from work. stay at home.and be a desperate housewife(this is too extreme).


2. Who just wants a job that pays i.e have something to call work.get paid.NEVER.


3. Who wants to be the person everybody loves. Not that i don't like being the lovable person but i'm fine being the rebellious daughter, the inpatient employee etc... 

Abnormal

It irritates me when someone is constantly talking about the need to be in a relationship or constantly looking for someone to want to be in a relationship.


It just sounds a little desperate.


Or maybe i'm just not normal.


XOX.

One of the boys

My new place is overwhelming-in a positive way. I'll elaborate when i have the time to write about it, not that i've been extremely busy these days, but i just don't feel like clinging to the internet.

Anyways....i wanted to tell you about my new working environment. I am surrounded by boys.guys (you know what i mean). On my right and left is a guy, and also the one in front of me. There is another female lawyer, but we hardly talk or stuff, probably because we're in different department and the age different (a bit,erm,she's not that old). So it's like, i come to the office and the first 'good morning' greet is from a guy. I go out to lunch with them, and of course i am the only girl in the group of 4 boys. In the evening, when we stayed back at the office, it's still me and them. And then my night ends with 'bye guys!'. Yeahh..

As time goes on, i find them pretty funny. Guys jokes and their interaction which other are kindda funny, but one thing for sure, they are drama free. Just what i need huh - a drama free place. 

Okay, tired. ill write again another time.

= ))

Awkward Monday.

Yesterday was my first day at my new work place. So i've been to a series of new workplace before, but it wasn't as awkward as this. When i was in the AG chambers, i reported duty with a couple of friends i already knew, and when i was in NKPT, i already knew a new lawyer was coming in the same day as me and we stayed together in the same room for a few days..so i basically i had people i can talk to. This time is a contrast. It was a Monday (i know right, the whole monday blues thing) and i came in alone. As the rest of the lawyers are placed in a certain area, i was kindda isolated in a room (temporary), because there wasn't enough place for me there until one for them leaves (soon).  So yeah, nobody to talk to! And i know, it's a normal thing that on the first day at work and probably on the first week, you won't have any work. But i'll never get used to it! I feel kindda guilty that everyone is sorta running around and even my boss, and i'm sitting at my place literally doing nothing. Rasa mcm makan gaji buta. Kalau secretary bagi kerja pon skang rela buat so i can feel a bit useful around here. Just need some petient i guess to get use to the enviroment. Umm, but i adapted to NKPT quite fast, a week over and i was joking around and having breakfast with the staff. Oh well, maybe because it's a small firm. This time around a bit different. Vast different. It also calls for a change. I can't complaint about too many things and gotta have more patient (can't believe i actually said that!), because i want to learn and get as much experience as i can. This place looks like the one i can get that, i have a good and nice boss (so far) who seems like he's willing to teach me, the environment looks friendly and merrier, and the other lawyers seems okay too (so far), and the pay is much better here. So i want to try and make the best of it, and enjoy my stay.  But i still have reservations. I don't want to assume too many things and have all this perfect imaginary of how i thought things are suppose to be. They say it's better to prepare for the worse then to have high hopes and later get crushed. Everything is still to soon to tell.  I hope awkward moment pass by soon. I wanna feel like im working again, because i do love working and my work, and that has been awhile since i last felt that way. I don't know bout you people, but i enjoyed my life most when i'm in the office. Beside working, you get to know people and subsequently they become your friend, and you just have so much fun working that you don't even want to go home. Hahaha. I know. I'm weird.  Okay. Tired. Bye! p/s My office uses iMac. I had trouble find the internet explorer/chrome and all other application. Kesian. On the second day, i didn't know how to even turn the damn computer on that i had to ask for help from my boss. I know. Pathetic.