Thursday, March 24, 2011

Just a little encouragement from me with love.

Hello! Lately i've been really busy (with work of course), productivity chart has definitely gone up the ladder and still going up..wonder if it'll ran out of step soon?

Will you get bored if tell about my work? yes, again? What can i say, i am practically having a relationship with my work ; )

Okay, we'll just put that on hold awhile....

Yesterday, the SPM result was out. Front line newspaper was filled with news of top scorer. I am always amazed by those brilliant kids. I was never a top scorer, neither a scorer in school. When i was in the top class, i am always one of those in the bottom. And when they put in the second class, i was in the top. I even had number one in class once. Make sense huh?

Oh well, those days where NUMBERS meant everything and SPM was like everything your future would be. If you don't make it then, your life is OVER and you would probably just be working at the supermarket and be a loser for the rest of your life.



As i am now, i hope i can pass the message to those who did not have a very flaterring result, that it is not over for you kids. When i was at that period, i use to think the same but now as i have seen the bigger picture, that result is just a golden ticket. It makes thing easier for you (of course), thus make way for you to have a good future. But if you don't have that golden ticket, it does not mean you can't make it. There is always a way. Not all golden ticket holder ends up rich. I have friends who are terrible in school, but now leading better life than me.

So just don't give up and loose hope or think that this is all over for you.

There is always a way to make it.

I don't have A's lining up my SPM result, and people would freak out if they knew what i had. I don't have a-to-die-for-paycheck, but i'd say i have a good job and a good life, so far.

For those who passed with flying colors- congratulations and keep up with the good work!

For those otherwise, get yourself back up and plan you next step.

Seriously, it's not over.

If it is, then why the heck are you still alive? Or are you seriously going to make this a start for a misrable life?

You know it's not too late to change it.

This is just the begining.

p/s Today, i have a lot to be grateful about.

Monday, March 21, 2011

That's the hardest part II

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
Was the hardest part
And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining in the clouds
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
You really broke my heart
And I tried to sing
But I couldn't think of anything
And that was the hardest part

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
and thats the hardest part
That's the hardest part
thats the hardest part
That's the hardest part

Sunday, March 20, 2011

The Hardest Part

The hardest thing for me is keeping my distance from you, because everytime i'm like forget you, there you are appearing out of the blues into my life again. It's like you ain't going to let me forget you. At the same time you ain't staying either.

God knows, i try to distance myself. I tried to make the whole conversation short and simple. I achieve that in the begining, but as conversation moved on, i fall back. I fall back just repeating the same mistake i always make with you.

After the conversation ends or ended like not how i wanted it to be, i feel bad for myself.

p/s I want to tell you  i miss you, but i can't. So i hope you read me. I mean what's the point of telling anyways right?

Monday, March 7, 2011

Just do it

You should always do what you feel like doing when you are in the spur of the moment. Because once you stop to think about the pros and cons of the action you are about to do, you will not have the guts to do it.

Have you ever feel like doing something because you just want to do it and think whatever happen, happens?

This is coming from a person who had just done something because she just want to do it for since so long now but haven't had the right opportunity. She's just too curious she can't help herself from knowing what might happen next. She could care less about the pros and cons as well, because her curiousity is like an expending balloon.

She is relief that she got a positive feedback but still maintaning neutral to the whole situation.

For now.

But i have a bad feeling that when she wake up in the morning, she will partly regret this.

You say what? An oath of a bolder me?

Congratulations!

I just did one.

* i plan to sleep early tonight, but i had coffee at SB. smart move. now i can't sleep. so im writing this.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

How i celebrate this year.

Im back and older!

Bofore today came, i vow to take an oath. An oath that i will no longer be a super excited jumping up and down, hyper at the most misappropriate time miss pretty happy.

It's time to grow up.

Be serious and boring.

haha!

The reason being is because i was going to Langkawi and meet people, and some people i will meet, or should i say person, is my motivation to go to this meeting. Out of all the people who knew me, some even know me better than i know myself, i still have to say i know myself best. And when i am around people, i either get excited and say things or do something which i will reflect back and regret. Or..., okay, there is no Or, There is just one thing that's bound to happen.

And yes it did!

Putting aside the super excited girl. I get a much more loosen up and happier version of me, which is not always a good thing. But who can blame my behaviour! There is just something about that island that makes people go all Hey!! Hey!!



First, i feel like a pampered vip. Then, i start meeting a lot of familiar faces which makes me feel so easy breezy and comfy. Then, it started while i  sat beside a lady who starts giving me compliments about the top im wearing. Then beside the lady, was a guy a.k.a image consultant whom the last time we saw each other, i had my bang hairstyle and he said ...

Oh, you got a new hair?
No, my hair just got longer.
But I like this look on you. It looks fresh.
*me blushing*

Then i went on and on about hairstyle this and this with him, and he didnt quite get what i was saying because i was starting to have like a girl-to-girl conversation with him, and the noise in the room. Then it got me wondering, since when did we become best friends?

Then, Back front, Left and Right- I said Hi to all. And then termenyampuk conversation with another person. I must have had too much conversation i forgot to stop my mouth from speaking. But frankly, i was just helping her answer her question, because it seem that everyone already know the answer except her. So i'm just assisting the travelling of news. Still, i admit, that was not very appropriate. Let the person who's question is directed answer the question ilyana! Basic! me malu seketika...

But i got over it fast.

The next day, the lady who complimented my top, once again complimented me. She stopped me while i was in the middle of walking and said "I really like your top. You have a very nice collection". Okay, the gedik me came out in this. I actually pose thinking i was a model or something and said my wardrobe mostly came from nichii! That pose was not necessary and if i can recall how i said it, i sounded very gediksss. And nichii is not very high fashion okay, that's not suppose to came out loud. Oh me..Right after i get all model-ish (konon) with the lady, Mr. Him attacked! He came so suddently i didnt not have time to compose myself except just continue being ......gediks! He invited for a karoake session during nighttime, and i confident je cakap mcm nk join. tgk2 mlm fall flat on my bed!

Moving on to my motivation..

Mr.Him was being his typical self, very uptight and busy and always on the phone, and always there where i am and always talking to me at the very last moment of every event, like at the end of a discussion, when i have finished eating, as our way to check-in at the airport and as we were picking up our luagage. He needs to pick up the pace! He also need to stop appearing in places and at times when i least excepted. Example is choosing a seat right in front of me. Great. Now i just can't look straight anymore.

Above all that, i had fun in Langkawi.

I also found my biggest fan. I don't know whether i should be flattered of throw up. I dont want to think about that.

I want to remember this trip as splendid all new me.

Older.

Better.

Bolder.

Super Excited Jumping Up and Down and hyper at the most misappropriate time.-this one is still staying!



extremely in happy mode dapat beli unlimited supplies of chocolate! How old am i again? = P


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