One Malaysian.

Since i've gone completely uncovered on the top - head - get it? These comments and remarks came quite often.

1. Aha. Saya ingat cina, bile tgk name, melayu rupenye.

Hhm..okay..acceptable. Not saying i'm proud to be getting that kind of remarks, but i do get that often, so no surprise. But honestly, maybe i look at myself everyday, i can't notice the difference. But hmm..where's the chinese?I mean which part?I use to think it could be the eyes. My eyes are kindda small. But then i use eyeliners to make my eyes look bigger. Doesn't help does it? Okay, so my skin are not very fair. I've the darkest skin tones in my family, though i do use makeup, helps a little. Naah. Doesn't do the justice also.

That's kindda alright you know, because well...i'm not really pure malay (com'on we all aren't). There's mix of every type of race, and that's what we get. A production of "can't really know what she/he is". = )

2. This is really bizzare. Puan from Sabah kan?

Plus the way she+he said it, their voice...that's not even a question!it's a statement. I'll still take that as acceptable because they're probably thinking she looks a little chinese, but hangs out with malays..so she could also be malay. I'll take that, though at first i think its so out of the blues.

3. Related to the second. I asked them back how they can tell i'm from Sabah.

Nice move ha...i'm actually affirming their so-called question. First he said : tgk rupe itu ade macam Sabah sikit. Tolerable. I can accept that.I don't mind. But wait till he opens up further. He said: Puan cakap pon ade style Sabah sikit. WHAAATTT? Com'on!Seriously?I do not okay.Right?Not that i think it's bad when you talk like a Sabahan. Just that i don't I talk like one. I don't even know how, except for the -bah at end. That's all, even that just sounded so strange.

I should check back on my origins. Think my mum has some mix chinese blood SOMEWHERE. Since i really get that these remarks often, sometimes i dont bother standing up for it. I just go with the flow. Puan from Sabah? Yes i am.

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Oh ya. I am officially a movie junkie.

Is the twilight book really THAT good? I don't read the book, i just watch the movie. The first one was so-out, dont even remember what's the title. After watching it, i have this sceptical view that it's a teen-flick. You know,...highschool-boys n girls falling in love-love is blind-can't live without you- i love you-i need you-whatever. But since everybody's watching it, so i guess its worth seeing what's its all about. The second movie, new moon. Not bad, it was okay. Though i don't get the Edward part. Why is he always that sober n always in the mood of about to cry at any minute. Thank god Jacob was there. He saved the movie!and Bella, pale cry baby over shirt-less hot abs?Girl, grow up!

Someone said being *tut* mcm Paris Hilton

To start off, someone (not from my office, but someone whom i use to deal with not from my office but from my work world..hmm) said his life is so busy.Think of it life Paris Hilton.Eww..a guy said that for real?Anyways...guess he was trying to explain why it took so long for him to call me back. So Paris Hilton it is!Haha!

My whole body is aching! It's probably too tired. Had a really packed-fun-filled weekends. On friday night, i was out with friend right after work. We went dinner and then went for movies. Reached home at about 12 something. Too tired to even change my clothes. Just wash off the make up and slept in my jeans and tank! Too tired to even wake up..woke up at 10 am next day!

Saturday. i'm off to midvalley with friends again. Went for a bowling - 3 games! daaaammmmnnn tiirreeedd! Then dinner, jalan-jalan skit. Then head home. Since the night was still early and i did't want to go home yet, drive la slow2..saje ikut jalan jauh hantar kawan balik. Once again, arrived home,,too tired to do anything. I fall asleep until my sister woke me up. Only larat nk tanggal contact lense..then just went to bed with all the make up and jeans and tank!Haiya!

Next day. Sunday. Thought i just stayed home. But No. Went lunch and jalan-jalan lagi with friends. Thinking of washing my car. But forget it. I'm Freaking Tired! Need an Ogawa Gintell Chair!!Need a a full body massaage.!!

Now i know how it's like being Paris Hilton. Party all night!It's soo tiring, but addively fun!

Tomrrow is monday. Friday is holiday. So only 4 days of work next week. Got lotsa work to be done tomorrow. Please don't make me attend any meeting. I want to finish off my work!!

Tired, but can still make it for dinner. Whose up for dinner? = )

Don't Regret A Thing.

I just came back from PD from a seminar/meeting.haha. (okay, those at my office reading this would know why i'm laughing). It was okay. The rooms were moderate. The food was good. The activities was not very tiring, and that's a good thing because we didn't feel exhausted. We had a lot of free time which enables us to go do our own thing with our family (only that i'm not married, so practically i don't have my family there). I only get to see the rest of the officers and staff with their families. So sweet some of them. And there was so many cute babies especially kak ayu's daughter's Sofia. She is the most cutest baby girl i have ever seen. Makes me want to have a baby! But i want her to stay that way forever, i don't want her to grow up. can ah?

When there's PD, there's a beach. I'm not a fan of swimming in the beach or the pool. I stopped when i came back from overseas because i didn't like the idea of swimming without wearing a proper swimming suit. And to wear one at this age, oh god. I'll passed. I feel like i'm to old already to be dressing like that. But i always makes sure i hit the beach. just walking along the coast, with my feet on the sand, and breath of air. The many people enjoying themselves, eating ice cream. I like that atmosphere.

The beach also signifies a new beginning for me. Its that time where you feel like the there is nothing in your head to worry about. It's such a soothing feeling whenever i'm at the beach. It's perfect for me to be there at the right time. I finally get the answer to one situation that have had been lingering in my mind. I use to hope that thing would get back to normal, or regrets everything that have ever happen. Regret that i ever met a person and the way things turns out. But i'm not going to do that anymore.

I never believed it regrets anyway. I believed that you make a decision, stick by it, and live it. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. That i do believe. There is bright side behind every shadow. Imagine if you did not ever met the person, the you're life (of to be exact, my life) would not have been excited as it was. Because i was happy when i know the person.

If they turns out to be painful and hurtful. Then, it's okay. It doesn't make you a bad person. It might hurt a while, but soon it'll be okay. It'll take times, and sometimes, you feel really shallow thinking about someone that's not worth it. I look it this way. I think it's only normal to feel such loss and lonely. It means that you have feeling. You're a perfectly human being with feeling, that is to your advantage.

The world is still full with good and wonderful people all eager to met us. Don't let bad experiences stopped you from enjoying what life has to offer. There are bad people, there are nice people. There are also those that have both. Let them be. Just believe in yourself and believe in what you're doing is right. Never hit them back or do what people have done to you to someone else, because you want others to feel the pain that you did. Because karma might just hit you and then you'll know where you stand.

I'm writing this to clear my mind off things.
I thank you for the memories.
You are, unless all these while you weren't the person i thought you were, one of the most amazing and intelligent person I have ever met.
Being friends with you was great.
It was beautiful, but its over.

When i was at the hotel i watched one of the episodes from Ugly Betty, where she broke up with Gio and they saw each other again when Gio came back from a trip. And Gio said, after the trip and he realise something, and said "I finally realise that...i hate you. You're not a nice person. I'm banning you from my life. And betty replied, "you can't hate me. I am a very nice person. You can't banned me from your life, because we're friends".

Okay, so i don't hate anyone..i just want to highlight the point of banning a person. No literally don't hate anyone, at least not yet. But yes, i do banned certain people from my life. It's not a way to express anger. It's a way to forget an experience.

xox
pretty_happy21

I hate packing!

i hate packing!!!

so much to bring (want to bring) with limited space!


Leaving for three days!

I want OUT

Yesterday i had dinner with my good friend which i love dearly Nadia, better known as "ya". I was stressed that day and the rest of this week, so i didn't feel like going home yet (not that i ever feel like going home as soon ever anyway).I just needed to see someone and talk to someone. So that's when i called up ya! We had dinner and then went for ice cream at baskin robin. She also broke the news that she will be posted to Perak somewhere in December. Happy for her because i know she will do well anywhere. She told me the cases that she had handled and how it was, so happy that was doing what she does now. I know she is happy with it and she will continually do well. She will have a great carrier ahead of her. Though i can't help but feel sad, that she is going to be living far away from me. We can no longer have dinner together often! All my friends are leaving me..first its ida, and then him, and now ya. It makes me wonder why am i still here!I literally live near my workplace, they should throw me out...put me in KL!pls!!

- ya, promise you'll let me know your last day here tao!!

I'm doing okay btw. Except now i'm beginning to notice how some people are damn emotionless. They dont give a damn about others. They are also hypocrite. They say this and that, and then wala, they're the ones doing it. god, you people are immpossible. Are you trying to make an impression and make people think that you're very nice and sensible? What? Do you think we're stupid? HELLO.can see right through you're bloody words and reactions! I prefer that you just be bold and nasty and be who you are, which is, admit it you're a freaking nasty human being without feeling. You know that is better than pretending to be somebody you're not, at least people don't feel obnoxious when they're looking at you.

I always remind myself that whenever i feel really moody and feels like screaming at everyone around me, that maybe i'm on period (or going to be soon). But no, this i am not.

Another thing, why are there so many lesbians on fb? or is it just me getting they're friend request and they viewing me? Totally freaking me out. No offence. But do i look like a lesbian? Look, my love life is pretty sucking right now, but that doesn't mean i don't like boys. I don't think i'll jump to that other side. No thank you. But another no, no for me, is also those friend request and messages kate nk berkenalan..dude, gimme a break. A real turn off for me. I'm done meeting and knowing guys through this via net. If you want me, come and get me (aah, that's a quote form LOTR.haha)...just to say, i prefer seeing you in person, because then i can judge you from on forth.

Hah. Enough said.
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I broke my promise. So what.

Remember i said i was going to wait for this month pay check until i buy myself a perfume?Too bad. Bought it already!This month expenses..waaaayyyy out of proportions!I swear i will never go to SOGO KL again, because this month i have spend sooo much there. A promise meant to be broken.

Hillary duff - with love..didn't buy it, turns out i didn't like the smell. Also tried on Nina Richi Apple,..not so loving that one either, although i nearly bought it. The cherry apply smell doesn't suit me.

I was bored, so i took photos of some of the perfumes that i've use before.I still keep the bottles because they are so unique!

This one is such a bargain. Zen from Shiseido.I got a lipstick, a mascara and a pouch. And the sales girl have me an extra gift, a broach. I have them all to my mum, because i always use her lipstick until now.hehe.

This one is Paris Hilton. The smell is not very fruity, not my ordinary type of smell that i go for. But it's nice.

This is my favourite brand, Anna sui. This one that i previously used is secret wish. Very nice smell, for those who like strong fruity smell. The bottle is very cute right? Anna sui has a number of perfume that i like, another one is on the beach, but it's a limited edition, not many department store has it.



Honestly, i get really confused when i buy perfumes because i don't know how they categorized the smell. So the sales person always ask me "Miss, which one are you looking for.Do you like fruit?or strong ones? All i can say back is, what do you have? Then they start spraying me all the perfumes until everything just smells the same.Haha.So what i do now is that i go to a specific brand, and start choosing from there. And one more thing, always ask for free gift! You'll be amazed of what you can get. = )

Tomorrow is Monday. Yey!

Start your day smelling good okay peps!

Gonna go eat mee kari mum made petang tadi. Ade lagi baki tinggal.Sedapnye makan mee kari mama walau pun tinggal saki baki jee!! = )

Cash Flow.

This evening got a call from a Tailor in K.L reminding me to pick up my pants that i ordered from him. That is like a slap on the face. Just a piece of pants cost me RM330!okay, so originally it was RM360, but because the Tailor knows my dad so he gave me discount...still it is pretty darn expensive. Why do i have chicken legs!No pants will fit me which is why i had to make one. Not a lot of store sells an xs size pants you know. Even a size s will not fit me perfectly, i'll have to use a belt, which looks horrible as there's too much extras.hmmm.

This month expenses is really out of proportions. I eat out most of the day especially for dinner since my mum doesn't cook often anymore. Reason: Because there's no one at home. Then on weekends i'm out in K.L, taking account the minyak kereta, makan lagi. Aiyaah. Last week i bought myself a watch, cost me some RM350!Then bought some more clothes and pants. OOhh my...But the swatch watch was so worth it, amazing how i didn't fel; hint of regrets or sorry for spending so much. Oh ya and last month was convocation for the second time for me, calling for convocation fees.Hmmm.

But ya know what. What's the use of $$ when you don't use it, right?hahaha..so have fun with it!Which then reminds me, i need a new perfume. Hillary duff with love!i'll think i'll just wait this paycheck to bank in first before i buy that.

Oh ya, interestingly...last two days i had dinner with my good friend Fahmy and Nadim. Have been a while since i met Nadim, have been avoiding to met him actually because sometimes conversation with him seem so dull and unrealistic, because he's so positive. Is that even possible to positive the whole time? But anyway, this time, i told him about something, and as usual he gave us his..uuuh..sorta like a lecture...but somehow this time, i agree with him. And after giving it some thought. You know what i should not stay mad or be angry. It's just not healthy. SO make peace ya all! And nadia that includes you and your guy.

Hearts you all.

Everythings is going to be perfectly okay!

pretty happy is back!No more thins gosh emotional roller coaster and whatever la,,so not me kan Hani!kahkah!

And you should really check out twitter. Just for the fun of it and follow up paris hilton. I love her twit! Hmm..thinking of it, this paris hilton brand is getting a hold of me, her handbags and perfume, and now i'm following her on twitter!

Also like to say thank you to all my girl-friends for their support!Although i know when i set my mind on something or when i have made my decision, nothing they can every say will make a different. It really helps to have someone to just be there and listen.

Nadia, Ya, Hanna dan Hani!

Love ya girls a bunch.

And my dearest mummy too! She always listens to me and gave me her tender support and love . (hearts to her).

Another family update!My bro ...my other brother i mean,,,is getting engaged!Also anticipating marriage next year.wow!So many wedding is such a short period. But we're still working in that. Wonder what his theme color would be. Hope he doesn't steel mine!

Be happy everyone!

twit twit twit twit

hey, I'm on Twitter now!

And it's amazing who i found on twitter!
paris hilton!britney spears!and of course khloe kardashian (hearts).
and also our PM is on twitter.wow!

UNWELL.

I AM SICK.