After Life.

When we were in school, we were pushed to be the top student so we could either get into the top classes or go to boarding school (because admit it, we live in a country where getting into a bording school are considered the elite, for bright students).

Then, when got passed that, we entered high school and we were pushed to score straight As so that we could be a doctor. no? okay, correction. We were pushed to score straight As so that we could get into University. And yes, at this point we thought to ourself that this is it, the kind of freedom that we have been dreaming of...the fun, bfs and gfs, friends, like those we seen on TV, 90210 or whatever. We want that.

Once we were in it, we realise that the chase is not over. We get sick of the whole when-will-study-be-over and we dream of the after life when we finally graduated and start earning money so we could shop all we want and buy unlimited stock of clothes, shoes and go for vacation. And we believe, that after we reached that phrase, everything will work out fine. We finally have a job. What more is there to ask for, right?

Well, at least thats how i see it or how i went through. Only to realise that, this is the hardest part. Why? because this is the part when you will want more (again, at least for me). Why? because before it was only about getting a job that pays, you think that is what you need-just the job that pays you enough. But no! Once you get here, it will never be enough. Not just the money, but the part where hopes and dreams comes tag along. You have a job but it won't get you to your dreams. So you search and you're torn between having just a job or having the dream job.

Like i have said before, i wish i was born simple. I'm sorry, but i am greedy and i will always want more. Having just a job for me right now is not good enough for me. I want a job that'll take me places.

I admit, letting go of my job right now is the most risky thing i have done. But it would also be the bravest move i have ever made. It is not going to be easy. But i guess i don't want easy. I will deal with it. I'll cross the bidge when i get there.

Quoting from Grey's Anatomy Season 7 from Yang.

"You are either born simple or me"

Which one are you?

p/s there is nothing wrong with wanting the simplist thing in life. i admire those who does.